I seldom expose my vulnerability publicly but if this will help anyone spiritually then I will count my heart-felt, raw emotions on ‘paper’ worth it.
I had a rough past week but it didn’t start that way. You see, I took a leap of faith the last Sunday of January.
Filled with joy I stepped out of church on cloud nine feeling invincible and like it was going to be the best week ever! Instead everything that could go wrong went berserk, or so it felt.
Machines went down at work making it a very stressful week with much tension among the employees, disagreements with my husband which is rare, happened and I was diagnosed with an infection. Feeling sick and discouraged, I almost laughed with hysteria when my youngest came down with fever. Is there anything else that could happen since I’m barely keeping my head above the water and I can’t swim, I thought through my tears.
I should have been praying and fasting because I was feeling that this was the enemy attacking. I wanted comfort but instead of running to God, I ran for shelter where I shouldn’t have only to feel worse than I had before. I wept bitterly as Peter did when he denied God.
I still feel shaken but sometimes it’s when I am broken 💔, that God can seep through the cracks and get into my stubborn heart. It’s easier for me to stay down feeling unworthy but this is what faith is about. If I believe God forgives me, I must act accordingly and courageously forgive myself. Who am I to belittle His price on Calvary by dismissing the grace and mercy he extends to me. I am fighter and won’t let Satan win by staying down. So he knocked me down and I may have a black eye and swollen lip but here comes the comeback! I am stronger now because while I had fallen face down like a captive before the enemy, I cried out to the Lord, my Deliverer, my Savior and he fights for me and this battle is already won!
If you are going through something similar, don’t give up or let failure stand in the way of what God has in store for you! I’ll be praying for you and please pray for me! We received power when the Holy Spirit came upon us!
10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11 Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. 12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13 Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14 Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, 15 and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16 In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17 Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.
18 And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the Lord’s people.
We got this! ‘If God is for us, who can be against us?’